To tear the harping potion blue
And cry out an old taboo
The oceans endless salty fare
Relieves me of this stalened air
A loosened spirit must take leave
And with the wind both sigh and heave
So i bid this long farewell
from gripping dark and burning hell
To go to metro places cool
While unwravelling the spool
There the blindman paints with ease
And I feel the fresh chilled breeze
Staining colors red to blue
May words you say be ever true

I get into weird moods where i want a taste of fame.I wouldn't want to be famous like Jennifer Lopez or...even like the Dixie Chicks. More like the Emily Dickenson Virginia Woolf Audrey Hepburn style of fame....the unforgetable but unique people of their times...if you are sitting at home saying who the hell are those people you might want to check your pulse.Isn't that a completely bizarre feeling? Its not the whole im a little girl i want to be beautiful and famous and RICH!!!!!!!! AHHHH....no no no no no. More like i want the fame just so people will LISTEN to me. So i can voice my opinion and more people than the narrow range of my friends and maybe the occasional stranger hear. Opinion using the word loosely. Have someone read something i've written and have it actually maybe even a slight effect on their mood. When i hear a song..or....watch a movie and i cry...or read a book..and i cry....and i have then there is this feeling like THAT is what i want to do. Make someone cry or dance or laugh or fly!!!!And then i return to my im happy as a suburban girl whom the world knows very little about and sometimes its wonderful to hide away and be insignificant relatively. It certainly makes things easier. I'm having a block. Ahhhh i really want a cold frap and a party. Hahaha...the silence gets to me.

Sitting Around....
I was listening to Les Mis. and I was thinking about Eponine vs. Cosette. Just FYI to all you who don't know the show...Eponine is the daughter of two..cons...but she turns out good!! She is the tragic. She loves Marius but he loves Cosette. Marius and his college friends build a barricade and fight the french army(this is as part of the revolution) and they all die except Marius because Jean ValJean (TOTAL spelling issues) saves him (Cosettes "dad"). But..anyway...before they all die Eponine goes to the barricade and even though she loves him carries letters from him to Cosette. Then...she gets shot delivering a letter and dies, Anyway...Cosette marries Marius happy happy happy yada yada.....so, who are you? yeah..that was a lot of set-up for one question....well NIGHTY!!!

i realize i haven't updated in a looooong while....i just kind of go through ups and downs with blogging. Haha....I am Desperately Seeking Summer....but you know? im really actually perfectly okay and yeah...but the past week as in school week was rather uneventful as far as I can tell except for LARAMIE! which i did NOT get to see due to butterflies and little children (aka arthropod project and babysitting) AND that my teachers decided not to take us today WAAAHH!!!but anyway i know from my wonderful friends who were in it that it was documented speeches from the Mattew Shepard cases and that for a protest scene my friend had to scream god hates fags and Matts in hell...it is a REALLy scary/moving subject. Yeah....and so then come the weekend (including friday in this business) and although most of you who actually read this..or..if nobody does..well...haha...any of you who MIGHT even possibly read this probably saw more of me than you wanted this weekend so haha why do i reiterate? i think i just like to talk...or write...yeah, so friday was the freshamn formal (major bit of alliteration) and i have to say that i had an awesome time and there were lots of cool people and matt was cool and ZOE might be going to SH next year..actual...semi-big chance...and it was just some fun..and then went to emily;'s after and got some free t-shirts and hung out w/ em and people there and watched south park and trading spaces and the tlc magic explained thingymabob show...and lounged around. Okay..so then come saturday I went to my art class at MOORE!! i have to say i have come to love that even though my teacher is a scary pyscho bitch except she was nice that week and 'cause of SATs there were only 6 people there....we did this portrait of an awesome guy who was maybe just out of college and he's an artist (beside the whole modelling thing...) and he teaches karate..haha and he had a million tattoos...yeah, and the one girl who i talk to a lot in that class...im like WHOA serious drug issue here. Its sad because she's cool. But you know..minus the lets get picked up by college students while drunk and high thing.....thankfully all my close friends aren't druggies...but if they ever did have a problem i hope they would tell me..so i could beat them(not really) so they could you know get help...then i helped paint Once Upon and Island set con Zoe.....then i babysat. We watched space balls and tried to solve sherlock holmes mysteries and played trivia games....THEn sunday i went to ADL meeting then to Appalachia trip meeting then to FUN FAIR for the last bit of it...then home to slave away...homework. Thats where we were when today(monday) came. And now i am waitng. For something that i dont know is coming.I like waitng for things to unfold...its a strange anticipation...and leaves room for daydreams and then it comes or doesnt come...inevitably...but what comes could be better than the wait or no..but eventually something good happens in my experience..eventually.

Well, I just had a very very helpful and wonderful with Lindsay!!! YAY LINDSAY!! Sometimes its good to let things out and hear peoples two cents and try to make sense of things in a new way. The first thing was we were trying to distinguish between talking badly about a person and relieving yourself of aggrivation by explaining your situation that includes another person. So, where do you draw the line? Lindsay believes (in my interpretation of her little blurb!) that it has a lot to do with tact and purpose (and the context). So, if you are telliing a whole group of people about the horrible things some person did to you its talking about them but, if you are telling on person calmly about the situation and asking for advice or just for an ear to relive yourself of stress than it isnt. I don't usually have any problem with this anywho...Isobel and I have been trying (as many of you know) to cut down on our bad-talkingness. Haha....but sometimes, you just don't know what to do. Or you feel someone doesnt hold up their end of a friendship...or you just..stop having connections with people. I often find i have nothing to say to people (maybe i should start memorizing some Jennie facts!). Sometimes...sometimes its even people i USED to be able to talk with..so its weird. That might have been a little difficult to understand but hopefully you pulled something out of it. Long entries are fun..but sometimes they are hard to read through. I also need to relax and try and be more direct and open. WEll, thats really all for the day. Adios :)

Hola Chicos!!!!It was a very interesting weekend and i shall write about my fun/pointless excursions!!! On saturday I went into Philadelphia con mi amiga Zoe para ir a la clase de arte!!! Clase de arte estuvo muy interesante!!!MIKEY IS A SILLY GOOSE!!! (general anouncement of the day!!)So when i got there we had to close the big sliding door teacher but it was off track or something and my teacher's like "you guys have to move it because im..pregnant"??? She is HYSTERICAL (no, she doesnt mean to be..) She's like five foot and tiny tiny tiny with black bedhead short hair and big beady eyes (arent beady eyes usually small..oh well, hers a BEADY!" Yeah, and she must be like 25 or so. She is meeeaaaan. "well, you guys are looking a tiny tiny little bit better..i guess thats a half compliment." And yes, she astually said that. My class is a kick though....the people are just....wait..i forget what i talked about last entry. I have a nack for being repetetive. Say hi andy. Andy says hi!! AHHH siblings..hehe, he's cute though (rose is murdered). Then I got cool red strappy shoes but they are death to feet so i will wear them for five seconds and then go barefoot!! Thats about it!! Adios!!

Just went to Bringing Down the House. HAHAHA!!! It was...extremely politically incorrect, but it was funny!! Well, i thought it was funny. HAHA. Just craaazy at least. There were a TON of people there. It was the SH mob. AHHHH!!! I dont want to get up early tommorow :(. Boohoo, but i have fun at class, usually, haha. Except last time..wait no two times ago..I had like an hour to kill so im walking with this girl in my class to H&M and another girl in my class is standing there with a cigarette hanging out of her mouth asking if we have a lighter. Now im just like no, sorry...but the girl i was walking with starts looking through her purse..yeah, right "I haven't smoked in a week...im dying.." And im just like oh yeah right, haha, i havent smoked in evER? As in never. Hehe, im a goody goody suburban girl HAHAHAHAHAHA!! Yup, thats about it. Meghan and Michelle are on the retreat thing for confirmation class. Lalala....rose continues writing. Rose actually opts out and says nighty night!! BYES!!

Good day to you!It is a good day isn't it? Yes, it is. For no apparent reason :) Those are the best of them. The completely irrationally wonderful ones. OOOooohhh isn't it a great day! The air is brisk! Soy guatemalteca...o soy mexicana o soy canadiense o soy puertoriquenno (the enya thins..hehe, how to spell that? In fact, i think that word has an enya over the n instead of a y after it.)I hope everyone else out there has a GREAT day. You make your day, you know? So make your own happy. Make a plan or go kick a ball or make a t-shirt or a papercrane. This is def. good times.That was uselessly repetitive. With LOVE, bye!

Oooohhh to be free.To have been completely honest with oneself and to have known oneself and to still hold true to previous convictions. When what everyone expects you to want might not be what it is....i have mislead and it tortures me, i am not brave. I cannot even tell those close to me the truth-sometimes. I shall try and put life into perpective. I am of course still too young to be troubled and know that nothing now has to last forever but what i want...maybe that can. The things that i am sure of...are the people ive known for my life...or this one aat least, my friends. Someone to talk to...

I'm here at the art roomie!!!YAY!!! we finally turned in our course things today..ahhh, it is stressful in an amusing way. WHY can't we have five blocks that are just shorter? So i'm just umm...doing PLAYWRITING (again lol) but i LOVED it last year..lol, haha. Seriously, that was a much funner class than last year...excuse the grammer! and Jennie's doing it con mi!! Do you think this constitutes as art? I mean..im expressing my feelings graphically. haha. In words. I need a proyecto or i'll never get anything done here. HALEY and SARAH D are here in their cool artness. wow. Yeah..and im taking art (was that a yawn from you?) i know, it's kind of a bit..WHO CARES! but im just saying all this anywho. There's always music on here..."i feel the breeze....it feels electric..and like the breeze..i know the.." yada yada..."thats what i dont understand thats what i dont know.." "now im awake..you leave your light on..you take a swim.." There is a little hippo saying "Help fight Cancer At the Strath Haven Spring Fashion Show" It's pink. I'm writing a story. About Jane Simmons, my loverly fictional character. She is bland. I need something BIG to happen to change her. As of now she is thirty, perfectly flawless but not beautiful, a swarthmorean, and she works in a cubicle in philadelphia....haha that's the POINT she's supposed to be that bland...she lays out her slippers the night before and wears beige nailpolish what is up with BEIGE anywho. So anyway something has to change her...but the descriptions are cool for now ( i love the word pristine) im done!

YAY! we got out at 12:30 today ( thanks to our faulty watermane!!) YAY! I'm at Isobels with some people!! Hehe, aka Katie and Meghan and Jenn and Isobel(doy) and Sarah and Michelle and Jennie and yay!!!! Somos Habichuelos colorades y estamos saltando de Mexico en la trampolina!!! ( we are mexican jumping beans at the trampoline!) We taped a little movie!!! Some in spanish..and some in french..and english! And then we went to the ELEMENTARY SCHOOL! sigh the good days..hehe, i think we intimidated all the little people! Munchkins! And we saw Mrs. Mathy!! (elementary music teacher! hehe)And most of our teachers weren't there :( but we left notes on the blackboard!!!! Sarah is reading this as I type!! YAY SARAH!! mwahahaha!!! I love how i have nothing to say yet i ramble and ramble...well, ill see y'all soon (hopefully not at school tommorow..although im sure it will be fixed by then...hehe)Jennie has writing all over her pants. When she gets home she has o write "stop looking at my but" on the back of her pants hehe!!! LALALA!! Isobel is giggling! hehe, giglebel! haahahahahaha!!! We played clue and i murdered someone ( mrs. peacock) with the knife in the lounge. I guess they angered me!!! I don't know who my victim was..maybe i just have an angry soul....pshhhh, sorry just felt like writing that, now i am off...adios adios!!! MIS AMIGOS MEJOR!!! love, Rosie!!

I thought I'd bless y'all with yet ANOTHER entry.Except I have nothing to say..hmm..i will look for outside sources. MYCbeachbabe: what do you mean? Jenn is confused by me as always..hehe!!! I helped make the dinner things for Aid For Friends..yup! They get distributed to homebound people..in chester mostly i think. Lalala! I think I should take a vacation to..to..to..EGYPT! wouldn't that be awesome? Yea...i wish.....oooo I get to read an article on SKUNK CABBAGE! The Road to El Dorado zis FUNNY!! hehe, i like silly disney movies. It reminds me of the EMPERORS NEW GROOVE. Now that is a great movie. Hehe...yup. ZWe're watching it ( the road to..) in spanish!! EN INGLES! hehe! YAY! How come FIRST period got donnuts from Ms. Gawne? Yes...see....I have gone on a nice quest..you can ask me later..hehe....it includes specifically looking for the good qualities in George Bush..you all are smart cookies! Im sure you all get the idea!I mean...i may strongly disagree with his policies or opinions on war..or abortion..or the death penalty..or anything..BUT that doesnt make him a bad person..just in my eyes not someone who i would want as a president. But he does have conviction and is doing what he thinks is best. Its a hard job..i mean..you can't please america..or the world for that matter...speaking of the world..i will now inform the world..or those of you reading this...that Lindsay has a headache. Poooooor lindsay. I 3> lindsay. ZHow is it that i dont ever see lindsay ever. Lindsay rocks the...the..the..SUN!!! Okey dokey since i had nothing to say in the first place i will stop now before i get even more behind!

I FEEL SOO DONE! YES! good-bye technology and goodbe POW..or POW to the POW. Hehe. so now i can afford to be LAZY! LAZY LAZY LAZY BUM!! Lalala, so my grandparents are coming down this weekend. This should be interesting. They are very loving..people..they are very amusing. Hehe, my grandpa is diabetic but he refuses to believe it..no...he just refuses to do anything about it. He makes excuses for not believing the doctor or whatever..AHH! It's actually kind of scary....yeah..because he refuses to take care of himself...Hopefully I shall do something interesting this weekend. Something. MY BROTHER HAS HIS SPRING BREAK STARTING NEXT WEEEEEK!! ahhh. I'm jealous. What's up with that? But, when I have it..he'll be in school..mwahaha!! I know these are all things pertinent to you that you are just DYING to read about. I am in a semi-concsious state and I STRONGLY dislkine when you are feeling happy and content and DONE and somebody bursts your bubble and tells you to go put away clean laundry and says yu always leave a mess when your room is CLEAN except for one FOLDED basket oof laundry on a chair. ROAR. Im now done. Hehe, one more thing! ADIOS!

So today at 3:10 i was supposed to meet nicki so she could come home with me..and...go..to the pancake supper thingy at my church! But of course, being me, i FORGOT. And what's worse. WHAT was i doing? MATH!! gross. Hehe, actually it was amusing. I did these problems..and afterwards...realized i'd done the wrong thing..for most of them. Oh well, it doesnt count for school..except i get extra credit for going! But anywho not as cool as nicki. THANK YOU KATIE! you SAVED MEEE!! And your parents for driving nicole to the curch. That was very very nice of them. Yes, so here is conversation with nicky following this event:
nickiv630: u dnt wuv me
premidlifecrisis: i dont wuv you
premidlifecrisis: but i
premidlifecrisis: LOVE YOU!
premidlifecrisis: in fact
premidlifecrisis: after i searched on google
premidlifecrisis: i was going to im you
premidlifecrisis: hehe
nickiv630: but u weft me tiday
premidlifecrisis: i didnt mean too!!
premidlifecrisis: you KNOW it
premidlifecrisis: i looove you
premidlifecrisis: i wouldnt have on purpose
premidlifecrisis: i went to your house!
nickiv630: :-(
premidlifecrisis: poor nicki
premidlifecrisis: i am sorry
premidlifecrisis: i looove you!
premidlifecrisis: i do!
premidlifecrisis: i feel like im marrying you

premidlifecrisis: please nicole
premidlifecrisis: forgive me
premidlifecrisis: i know
premidlifecrisis: cheating on you w/ math was wrong
premidlifecrisis: but
premidlifecrisis: i love you
premidlifecrisis: will you marry me?
nickiv630: no
ADIOS!!!

fred...ned...titled by andy go andy!!
SOCKMAN!!!! will rule the EARTH!! hehe just kidding..well, actually...its almost true. The SUPER sock of liberty will wipe out all evil on earth..inlcuding the evil funnykisser..hehe, and the evil TICKLER!! Andy plays the evil funny-kisser and sockman. Jimmy plays the evil tickler and sockman JR!!!!!Someday it will be a legacy..like the simpsons..or calvin and hobbes..or the kennedys...just you wait!!!



ENTER!mwahaha..now of course i'm supposed to be done. done! why does that have an exclamation point after it? hum de dum...Andy is now giving me a disturbingly evil look that cries "eat death" lalala, good day..i read..forever..and then ate BISCUITS hehe the pillsbarry dough boy kind..hehe..it was good..but BUTTERY!! YUM! finished my amusing spanish composition Los Gustos de Mi Amiga Michelle!! El verano pasado michelle hizo muchas cosas. Fue Roma y a la escueala..yada yada...

T-T-T-TALENT SHOW!!!
whoohooo!! that ROCKED!!! Yeah, lots of cool bands and funnny junk..and true public school spiritness..HAHA!!!The last kids did some Dave Mattews Band Songs (they were the best..of the bands XD!!) Except that in the first half the fire alarm went off (too much fake smoke junk..or someone pulled the alarm)And Michelle and MArk and crew were VERY wonderful (need i have said it?) It was a wonderful calmness in the midst of chaos!! BEAUTIFUL!!!!!and everyone...everyone..was amazing. Billy Joel Medley ( i like billy joel..im not a super huge fan who knows all the songs(megs)..but i enjoy is MUCH) And a girl wrote a song..ooo, i have the program! It was called losing sight. It was really really good. Its about her friend (at least my interpretation) lizzy, who "loses sight" just floats higher and higher and closes her eys and yea...and..it was sad!!Thats it..hehe, im out!!! Love you kids!!!

why i leave the house on weekends..
because when i am home...maybe i think...oh, ill relax...have some down time, hang out..be lazy, sleep, talk on the phone..or on aim..or do whatver i want for afternoon, BUT nooo..that would be a serious waste of time ( sanity means nothing) i HAVE to be scheduled. I have to clean my room NOW or in exactly 20 MINUTES. Or do homework. They set timers. I strongly dislike timers. I strongly dislike overscheduled days. I am scheduled 5 days out of the week. I dont need any moooore. AHHH!! My insanity level is going way up. So hey, yea, today in class was pretty cool....this girl ( she's a senior i think) was telling me her theories about before the universe started. It was pretty cool. I don't happen to totally agree, but it was still pretty cool. She thinks that in the beginning there was nothing tangible, but there was logic. 1=1 even when there is no consience to know 1=1. So, out of the logic came the consience ( i forget exactly how that happened it was something about different possibilities of things that could be consience and that the logic, because it cant pick or choose, automatically selected every choice and created the all-encompessing consience...sort of similar to god) But then, because the consience encompassed all, it also encompessed opposites which then negated eachother ( example was -1 and 1). Yeah..thats about as far as we got before break ended...but yeah, i have different opinions personally ( she doesn't beleive in god) and i think there are many arguable points...such as, opposites, in matter, are attracted to eachother. They together have a nuetral charge, but they still exist. Yea.....proton plus electron doesn't equal 0. I think that possibly the world( not earth or our universe necessarily but something always was..or..yea) always was and stretches into infinaty both ways. She thinks time had a definate beginning because if it didn't " why would what's happening now already have happened"...but that dooesnt seem right to me. There is still an order..there is always something before...and always something before and always something after but there is still an order. Hmmm..well, adios.

random
they should have pogo sticking competitions. that is my best sport..haha..if you can count it..seriously, i can go forever.hundreds. hehe. lalalala. roar.today was a goooood day. It just was, you know? one of those random days. gingersnaps are fun...yes. they mke my day.AHH gina is amusing. Everything can be traced to the republicans. Anything bad that is. Gina's Philosophy 101. Hmm...you should enroll. Its free. TALENT SHOW!! its gonna be fuuuun. Hehe, i hope i can go. That would be sad if not. hehe. This is a blah pointless entry simply for my amusement. Zoe's new bloggy thingy is cool. But i cant read any of the tag messages. Yeah, and the picture is amusing and a little...hrrmm..hehe, but yah lala. Lauren and I are doing a photosynthesis board or powerpoint presentation. Haven't decided yet..lala..its amusing...Science is amusement. Hahaha, the stuff is actually pretty cool..but..being a lazy child..i...hehe..yuppers.

lalalalala
Jimmy is meowing. Oops, he is no longer jimmy ( pardon me) he is a kitten named ethan. Hehehe. I think i might have a mild case of dyslexia...AHHH i meant to say both miss the bus and instead wrote miss the both...but i corrected it..hahaha!!! I think that i should actually do something this weekend...hehe...Today is a gooood day. Im gonna have leftover hoagie for lunch tommorow! THREE TWENTY PRODUCE!!! lalala, Katie on the subject of away messages:why do people leave such detailed away messages about why they are away? o, that's right, because you stalk them and must know where they are and what they're doing 24/7... well if you MUST know, i'm off in alaska chasing giraffes. smiles katie:-D...lalala. People are cool. Jennies baby was drinking from a toilet, HAHAHAHA!!! Science reading is in my future. I need to figure out something not school or technology related to occcupy my time..hahaha! yes, tommorow im gonna wear andy's cool orange shorts!! Haha ( for all of you creeps, andy is my bro) lalalalala, hmm..he might not let me..oh well....HAHAhA, national math exam today. It was amusing. Nobody answered ANYWHERE close to all of the problems. I just realized how screwed i am in math for life. oh well. Andy made a cool mask of the eqyptian god BES! Bes is half lion half dwarf. How cool!! And she's PUDGY!! Google image search rocks. WOOHOO!!! AYURAVED: wow, that was another nonsensical message brought to us by... Rose!

hehe, i think claire will marry henry. it is destiny. that is my short speal. he goes over and talks to her dad on the porch. and when they BOTH MISS THE BUS..they walk all the way home from SCHOOL together. hehehe. poor claire is now going to defame me.

Depression Claims Friends of Rose...
The happy girl sitting in the corner..yea that one..even her. No, not me. Her. She's friends with me and YES even she gets depressed. It's scary. And the other girl. The one way at the end. She's awesome. Yeah, i know, she's deppressed as well. They all suffer from some sort of self-veiwing problem. Their internal lenses are off-tilt. And that kid and that kid and that one. From SFS ( smart friend syndrom..where one things they are average w/ straight A's because many of their friends get the same) to heterohappiness disease. You can't consume your own happiniess. You must be autohappy. It must be internal. Sure..I can make you happy...maybe..for a while, but it wont last. And what do i do...to quote "dunno".

UUUGGH
will this EVER work?

On Anger
I just wrote a page long entry and then DELETED IT!!!UUUUGH!!! So, not a great day..hahaha...school..was..well...okay..errr..i guess? Just that....well, aaagh I don't feel like writing all of this over again. Ill summarize (haha..like that'll happen): I am not perfect person 101..i DO make mistakes. I apologize...yea...And I'm sorry ( to zoe) about the guilt trip thing. I would have gone if you hadn't..i wasnt seriosu, but i shouldnt have said that anyway. Not even as a joke. But sometimes i feel the only way ill EVER see you EVER, is if a. someone makes you feel guilty, or b. you can't get transportation to the place you really want to go...so yea, I mean..when is the last time you've randomly called me? Or ive called you..I can't even remember. It's pathetic. On both our accounts. Yea, but i didnt make everyone go home early because i had to..in fact, (contrary to what some people said COUGH) I actually said the opposite. It was nice of you guys to do so..but it wasn't what i had planned. I was just going to go home early and you guys would stay. Yea, and then the changing bit. Guilty. It is especially magnified because you dont see me every day so when you do its like WHOA who is this person. Fundamentally, I am still the same person. Yea....and the other stuff didnt directly connect to me..soo....yea. But i'm sorry you didnt have a good time...and that you missed Dar Williams. And Rex Storch ( hey, next year!) Yea..on a brighter note!!! YAYAYAY! Good Math Test!!! No longer feel so pressured in math....AND i completed my portfolio and water board ( after having a nervous breakdown this morning I actually was able to print it). Well, I hate anger (hypocrite!! points to self) hehe!! Now im happy actually...YAYAYAY! Lets go learn about LYSOSOMES!!! YAYAYAYAY!!!!!!!!!

amberenmity
this is my little testing one...two...threeness..hehe...